I Am Back!! This Is A Long Post!!

I really have a hard time sitting down and writing. I do miss it a lot. I want to remember the girls and what they say. Sometime I forget so having a post is hard. So one of my New Year's resolutions are to write in my blog more.

The girls are keeping me very busy. I am having a hard time with Hannah being in Kindergarten. I really miss her during the day. My favorite part of the day is when she comes home. The smile on her face is priceless when she gets off the bus. I know she has a hard time going to school because she misses me. She even told me that during the day she really misses me and she doesn't know who to tell. I told her to talk to God quietly. I explained that he will give her comfort.

Tonight she came down after I put her to bed and just laid in my lap. She fell asleep with me holding her. It was a great feeling to hold her. I like to just stare at her,she is just so pretty.

My sweet Gracie what a little girl. She just turned four. I am glad to say goodbye to the three's. What a ruff year she has given me. I have to say she is very smart. I do have my hands full with her.

She is in love with police officers. On her birthday she walked in to my parents house ran to my dad. She hugged him an asked him ,"Terry you come over my house and watch bad boys bad boys." First let me say I do not like the fact that she watched that show once. It was by accident and it will never happen again. My father took her down stairs and gave her the mouse that sings the theme song to "Cops".

So here are some sweet and funny things she has said lately

"Terry, you are my sunshine"

(when I rub her back) "That feels so good"

(talking to the pediatrician) "I love you ,you a good person" Dr. Debbie is a amazing pediatrician. The girl's love her. I babysat for her for years.

she air kissed Governor O'Malleys brother!!! Now that was funny!!! he aired kissed her back!!!

"you are the best mommy in the world"

"don't make me raise my voice" So where did she get that one?

"I need my memom right here right now"

"Mommy I love you so much"

"I am seeweus, I mean it" (serious)

" can Igive this to my sissy Hannah?''

You see I have to start writing things down more. She is such a spunky kid. Also I love how she is with people. She has this sweet side that I love.

Hannah is a amazing she has a heart of gold. She is only mean to her sister. We are quickly fixing that. If you tell her something is wrong or you are sick. She will say I will pray for you tonight. She does pray for you and she means it. She has questions about everything.

This weekend we tried a new church. I have been in a rut lately. I am struggling on where to go to church. I am not struggling with my faith. It's always there. So we went to this new church. I had been praying about this. I really felt God leading me there. So we met our friends there. I was quickly in love with surroundings.

The girls quietly sat and listened to the band practice for worship. I took Gracie back to the toddler room. I heard she did great. There were some times she missed me.

Hannah stayed with me during worship. She was singing and clapping her hands. She loved the music. I did to , I felt very alive.

Hannah went to her classroom with her friends.

I love the message,the pastor, and the people who went out of their way to say "hi" Even the Pastor came over to talk to me.

When it was all over I went to get the girls. They both saw me and came running. They said they had a great time. Hannah and Grace want to come back. So do I,I love it.

The thing is I feel more alive. Not overwhelmed like I have been feeling. I want God to lead me to where I should be. I pray that he speaks to my heart. I want my children to know God's amazing love. I really think this is the church. I felt this way about a church before. I wasn't wrong,it was just to far away to drive.

I love my girls and my husband. I have a lot of work to do in my life. "One day at a time", my Nan says to me.

I think I will ask Hannah to pray for me!!!!