Somebody Pass Me The Freaking Lemonade!!

Hannah has not been sick all year I don't think. OF course the day before school she has a bad ear infection. So I don't send Hannah to school thinking she needs her rest. You know being in pain and all. Is that Murphy's Law?

Hannah is feeling better I think. I feel bad for her. I hate ear infections with a passion. So she has her first official day at preschool on Thursday with out me.

So I have become really busy . I start teaching this weekend. The 9th graders are really in for it this year. This semester I am teaching about morality! Their going to get a ear full. Sunday I have been recruited to meet and greet at our church with the new member breakfast. We will See how that goes with 2 toddlers at toe.

Is Hannah still considered a toddler? I don't know that one. Do You?

I think that Gracie has reached the terrible 2's. She gives me a hard time about a lot of stuff. I love just observing her. She is great entertainment after a long day. Her personality is really coming out also. She is very loving and rotten at the same time. She has 2 new pharses. "I want"(fill whatever she wants) Then, "I eat otdog" ( the h is silent in Gracie's world". She just cracks me up. The other one I love is "My Mommie".

I have also noticed that Gracie loves to ride in the stroller. I can go anywhere and she is happy riding in the stroller. Gracie calls her blankie her "boppie". So give her, her boppie and binkie and she is happy in the stroller.

Dean is keeping busy with work. Please keep him in your prayers that he gets promoted soon. He has worked very hard the last 2 years.

Things are going well here. I am feeling really good. I started the Lupron and I think it's starting to work. I am not in a lot of pain like I was. So yeah for that. I hope that I am pregnant this time next year.

I will try and keep up with my blogging. If I haven't commented or visited lately. Don't worry I'll be back.

Everybody have a great week!!!

Hannah

Dear Hannah,

I can't believe you are starting preschool in 2 days. It feels like just yesterday I was holding you in the hospital. You have grown so much, that I wish I could freeze time and keep you 3.

You amaze me everyday with your words and actions. You are very smart and the things you remember just astound me. You are the best big sister ever. You are always helping me with Gracie. You give her lots of love when she needs it. You help me with her diapers. You make her laugh. You make me laugh everyday. Your smile lights up the room and it makes my heart bigger. Hannah, you are just a wonderful little girl. Everyday I try to tell you how awesome you are.

I want you to know as you grow,some days may be hard. You might find a task frustrating and no fun. Kids may tease you and hurt your feelings. Some days might be a real downer. You never have to worry because mommy will always be here for you. I love you so much and you never have to question that. You have made my life wonderful. I am a better person because of you.

I love when you sing to me and dance. I love when you tell silly jokes to make me laugh. You fill me up when you tell me that I am the best mommy. I love holding your hand when we take walks outside. You are a great big helper.

Thank You my sweet B. I love you so much.

Love,

Mommy

Just Trying To Understand

I realize as I write this I do have 2 beautiful girls. They are the light of my life and the reason I get up every morning. I am grateful everyday to have them in my life. They make me laugh,smile and cry sometimes.

I am just overwhelmed with a lot of things right now. It's seems I can't catch a break. Someone please explain to me how I have Endometriosis and a large cyst on my right ovary. I thought having 2 kids would take care of this. I am in pain everyday and it never lets up. I am just tired from all this,again I feel overwhelmed.

I wanted to write this for a couple of reasons. First, I want to look back in a couple of years while I am nursing my 3rd baby and tell myself I am a wiener. Second , there are no good posts because by the time the girls are asleep I am wiped out. So when my pity party ends you all will see a better Red Headed Mommy.

So this is what I am dealing with and I hope you all understand.

p.s. Gracie has 1 new phrase,"no mommy" Great(with a sigh)

Okay, So I Am Slow

My life is really busy these days. Work is crazy and I can't wait to come home to be with the girls.

I did it I enrolled Hannah in Preschool. I can't believe that she is starting school. She is really excited about it too. I told her that I went to that preschool too. I also mentioned that her Memom was a teacher there also. She just gets a big smile on her face. She is really ready for this big milestone. I am not sure that I am. I feel like I just had her yesterday. We will see as the days come.

Gracie is so funny these days. He vocab is getting better. She likes to make people laugh. Everything lately is Mommy mommy mommy!!!! She gets upset if I leave her. She is a real luv bug. When she is ready for bed she is ready. Give her a bottle and change her diaper quick or you have some drama .

I start my teaching in September. I am really excited about that. I love to teach young people. I want them to know how important Christ is in their life. My heart is so there sometimes I think the teenagers see me with 2 heads. Whatever it takes for them to love him. I feel really good these days. The doctor's told me to go back to being a mom and wife. That there is really nothing to worry about. So I think I will!!!!!

Well, my husband turned 39 on Friday. I made him a fab meal. He wanted apple pie for his cake. So apple pie he got.

Well I am going to go have a piece of it. I will write more later!!!

I'm Back!!!!! And Feeling Thankful!!!!

I have to write first that my Mother,my mother in law and husband you all the best. I could not have gotten through this ordeal without you. You took care of me and my beautiful girls.

Dean, when the doctors said that maybe it was a stoke. All I could think of was not being here for you and the girls. I know somehow you would survive because you are a awesome father. You tell me all the time how you need me and I can't imagine not being here for you. Thank you for holding my hand and kissing my head when I was at my worst. You organized the girls to where they needed to be. You got their clothes packed. You never rolled your eyes you just did what you needed to do. You continue to amaze me and I love you so much. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I love you so much.

Mom, thank you for keeping the girls being at the hostpital and running around like a crazy person.
I will never forget the horrible pain I was in and I just asked for you and you came to my side. You rubbed my head like you did when I was younger. You never left my side unless to take care of Hannah and Gracie. Thank you for letting me cry when things were frustrating. I love you so much. I am looking forward to dinner next week just you and I.

Stella, you treat me like your own. You give our girls such great love and care. I can always count on you. I love you so much thank you for everything.

Hannah and Gracie I am so sorry that mommy was away. I know you missed me . I am back and I missed you both so much. Mommy loves you!!!!

So The Part Where My Head Explodes!!!

This will be real quick!!!! I woke up Monday of last week with 104.5 fever with the worst headche ever. Dean took me to the Er under advisement of my PCP.

After many tests (spinal tap,) every x ray in the world. They first thought I had a stroke then now possibly some form of mennigitis. Now it's a little bit of both. Needless to say I won't go back to that hostpital again.

I feel like my brain has been fried. Somehow I remembered to write to you all. So I will be at the doctor's a lot this week. If you have my phone number call me because there probaly won't be a lot of internet action this week.

So Much To Tell

Well I had my kidney stone removed last Wednesday. I am in some pain from the stint that is in my kidney and bladder. It is in for a week so I can heal properly. I spent 2 days at my mom and dads with the girls. My mom took care of Hannah and Gracie so I could rest. I feel fine as long as I am taking pain meds. The girls are easy but I still have to take it easy.

Saturday my friend Lori and I took the 3 year olds to see Shrek 3. We had a good time. It was Hannah's first movie in the theater. She love the soda and popcorn. Then we took the kids and did father's day shopping. Dean got his presents as soon as we came home. Hannah walked in and said ,"Daddy we got you books and shirts and a hat".

The movie and all the walking tired me out. So Dean let me go to bed earlier. I was just wiped out.

This morning I slept in because I was really hurting. If you have noticed Dean has been just the best about me resting.

I surprised Dean this afternoon and told that we had reservations at Sabatino's with our friends Lori and her husband Pat. We even took the kids and that went well. Sabatino's is our special place. We had our first date,got engaged and had our wedding rehearsal dinner there. It's in Little Italy in downtown Baltimore. Then I braved it and we walked around the Harbor. So we really had a good day. Hannah and Gracie were so much fun. They gave their daddy lots of lov'n. I was reminded again why I want so many kids. My husband is a awesome dad and a wonderful husband. Ask Gracie she thinks he's the best.

Gracie is having word explosion to the max. She is talking up a storm. She has learned where her eyes,ears,and nose is. She even says it too. She calls her blankie and binky her bappy. She woke up the other morning and pointed to her bottle and said,"ba bott". She is not afraid to stand up to Hannah. I have seen some pushing. She says,"hi " the cutest way. Gracie is so lovable and sensitive. She likes to wrap her arms around your neck and hug you. I think that is my favorite. When Gracie poops in her diaper she squats and says eeewww!!. A lot of things she says,"uh oh" about. Mostly when she drops her bappy. I am just loving this age.

Well, Hannah is being a true 3 year old. She is definitely a Mama's girl. She follows me every where I go. Her hair is so long that she really loves to have it braided or a ponytail. She is becoming more of a big girl everyday. Sometimes it's tough but she really is smart. Hannah has the most lovable and concerned side yet . All week she has said," Mommy am I making you feel better"? Dean raised his voice to me and she was quick to say ,"guys guys guys let's talk nicely,no fighting okay." Dean and I felt really bad about that. Hannah is very protective of Gracie lately and acts like a little mother. Sometimes I have to step in and correct Hannah for correcting Gracie. Hannah amazes me everyday with her actions and her words.

One thing is for sure. Being a parent is hard work but Hannah and Gracie make easier on some of the hard days. Some days my my heart runneth over and I thank God for allowing me to be a mother. What a wonderful gift by God.

Hope everybody is well!!!! Pictures to come.

Updates

On top of my endometriosis, I have 3 kidney stones. The 2 kidney stones are in my right kidney and I am literally passing the other right now.

The surgery for the endometriosis is being put on hold. I am having lithotripsy done to remove the stones. Then after I recover from that I will have surgury for the endometriosis. My plan is to get pregnant very soon after all this.
Dean, has been a big support through all this. I really don't know where I would be right now without him.

So anyway everything in my house is going pretty smooth. Hannah and Gracie are just getting so much cuter everyday.

Gracie pointed to a picture of Elmo and said "Ego". It was so adorable I just laughed really hard. Hannah is so smart that I have to really watch what I say sometimes. She doesn't miss a beat.

Dean is busy with work. He comes home exhausted but he has been a big help with the girls.

I am reading a lot of good books lately. You all have to check out the book by Jodi Piccoult "My Sister's Keeper". It is a real page turner. I read as much as I can. I have 3 other books that are on my list. I will let you know what I think when I am done.

Next Wednesday is my Father's swearing in at the State House. We all are very excited to be there with him.

Well the pain medicine is kicking in I think I will go to bed now. I will post more later.

Just Busy

Sorry it's been so long ! I have been extremely busy with what life throws at you.



I am having surgery in a couple weeks. I can't take the pain anymore. So my GYN is going in and lazering the Endometriosis. I am in a lot of pain and not much energy.



I have really big news in my family. Remember the post about my father last July. Well he has been asked to be the Superintendent of the Maryland State Police. Our Governor called and he accepted with great honor. He will be leaving his postion as the Baltimore County Police Chief.



He has really worked hard in his life and this is a honorable acheivement. We are jumping for joy in our house.



If you already don't know I adore my father. He is a awesome father,husband and Grandfather.



Good job Dad!!! we love you.



The girls are keeping me busy. I will do some updates as soon as I can. For now I wanted you all to know about my Dad.

Blankie!!!

Scene- Me opening the car door. Trying to find my wallet while holding Gracie.

Gracie see her blue and white blankie that has been in car for the past 2 days.

Gracie- (in her high pitched voice-sometimes) "Hi, ba ba". and pointing to her blankie.

So all night she held her blankie and called it "Ba Ba".

It was so cute.

What Gracie Says!!!

She had a fever last night.104.8 . In her sad little baby voice ma ma.

I sing OLD Mcdonald she sings E I E I O.

MY mom says Grace it is spelled G R A C E Gracie sings E I E I O!!

Dean left the other day for a meeting. He looks at Gracie after she recked the house. Gracie, please be good for mommy. She says NO No!!!

Apple- bappa

Hannah - a nah

yeah!!!!!!

holds her arms out and says "all Ga wn"

So that is what Gracie is saying lately.

Gone To The Zoo!!!!! The Maryland Zoo!!!

My favorite part of the Zoo!!!!! It was a beautiful day!!! I had my 3 favorite girls with me. Beth is a great help with the girls. It also helps that she loves the zoo. It was just a beautiful day.

I hope you enjoy the pictures!!!!

Hannah enjoying the Giraffes!!!

" Hey, Ma can I eat it?"

That's a Rhino!!!!

That is a Porcupine "Ouch" Hannah said,"watch your butt"

Hannah and MiMi(a.k.a. Beth) Hannah's namesake and my best friend.

Gracie hugging her blankie!! Don't you wanna squeeze the sweetness out of her. She also said "hi" to all the animals. It was just adorable.

Hannah

Setting
Hannah was on the porch. We (Dean and I) were leaving for work.

Me: "Hannah, look there is your kitty cat".

Hannah: "mommy she's so cute"

Me: "she was waiting for you".

Hannah: "oh, Mommy where did the kitty go"

At this point the cat ran away

Me:" I don't know Hannah"

Hannah: "It went back to Pet Smart".

Doing Some Spring Cleaning!!!

It is spring and it's time to change and adjust. I have things on my mind that just have to get done.

1. I am gonna stop complaining and fix the problem.

2. I am going to let certain things go and understand sometimes things don't work out.

3. My house is going to be spotless.

4. We are remodeling our house.

5. Hannah will be potty trained by June.

6. I am going to loose a lot of weight.

7. I am going to walk more in my neighborhood.

8. I am going to cook more.

9. I am going to enroll Hannah for school.

10. My husband and I are going to go away.

11. spend more time with my Mom.

12.spend more time with my husband's sister and new husband.

13. go to church more.

14.love more

15. forgive more

16. laugh more.

MyThankful List

I haven't written my thankful list in a long time so I thought I would post one. I will try and keep up!

1. my parents they are always there for Dean and I. They are good people and they work hard.

2. My mother in law. She has a big heart,with a lot of room for her kids and grand kids. I love her like my mother. She has great advice and takes good care of our girls.

3. Hannah and Gracie, they take away all my anxiety from life and work. I love them so much I don't know what I would do without them.

4. Hannah's singing, she sings all the time and it's beautiful.

5. Gracie, her goofiness is so funny. Dean pointed out that her personality is really shinning. I think she will be the comedian in the family.

6. My list pf projects at the Home Depot that are going to get done this spring and summer.

7. For Dean, he has an amazing eye for beautiful things for the house. He also is very handy around the house. Most of the projects will be done by him. He is that good.

8. God, he is loving and forgiving and without him I couldn't survive.

9. Mandy Patinkin, his music puts me in a better place.(check him out)

10. For being alive and loving my life.


************* Challenge of the week******* Forgive somebody that you know,And ask God to change you heart to be better.

Hugs and Kisses

Updates And More #2

Happy Easter My Bloggy Friends!!!!!

The Redheaded Family has been very busy!!!! We traveled all over Maryland and PA.to see family. I slept the whole time!!!!

In other news the girls had their well visits. The girls pediatrician I use to babysit for. So it's more of a get together and talk about her kids then mine.



Debbie(pediatrician) said Hannah is doing great. Gracie still has some issues but we are working with them. Everything all together is fine and beautiful.She looked at their ears and she said they were beautiful. I think it has something to do with the Zyrtec. Really,what do I know?

This morning I was changing Hannah's diaper to put on her pull up. She says,"Mommy I have Gas". I laughed so hard at 8:00 in the morning. She makes me laugh so much.

Gracie is having word explosion I think. She is trying to say a lot. You can really understand her too.

Dean suprised me with some tile in the kitchen. I love the tile and it's ceramic. I think it's the best one I have seen. The price is good also.

Nothing else to report here in the land of the Red Head.

Someone please comment!!1

I 'll Take Mental Health Day for $100

So I really needed a haircut,bad. So bad that I have been wearing a ponytail for the last 4 weeks. Yeah, I know boring but there's no time.

So the wonderful husband stayed with the girl's so I could get my hair !*!@&@&^ chopped off. It was really supposed to be a trim but really when does the Hair Cuttery listen. So I was at the Mall with all the other crazy peoples. I decided to go to Macy's because I had birthday money and I was going to by some sassy work clothes. So now I have a cute hair cut and cool work clothes.

I have a big meeting at work so I want to impress. I shot off my mouth at work the other day so I want to make nice with the big guy.

So after my haircut I walked the Mall and realized I missed my girls so I went home. That was my morning to myself and it was wonderful.

So my little Gracie is really having a bad time with Eczema and Asthma. I feel so bad for her she just wants to walk around naked. Her little back has a big patch of eczema that she is very um comfortable. I got out my magic mixes out and hopefully she will be better soon. The doctor put her on Pulmicort once day for her asthma. It's really frustrating for her. It's like she knows that she needs her Albuterol. She hands me her mask and sure enough she is wheezing.

Not much going on with Hannah. Except that she amazes me everyday with something sweet. Turning 3 has really made her different. She has really grown up.

Well this post could have been great but my computer is going slower than a old lady driving in the pouring rain.

So I wish you a Happy Easter And Many Of God's Blessings. Easter Pictures to Come.

Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!!

What I am grateful for,at the age of 30!!!!

1.my husband!

2. Hannah and Gracie

3. My friend Beth who knows that I am going through a tough time right now and came out this weekend to help me.

4. my friends

5. for God

6. some of my family.

7. the art of forgiveness

8. laughing and crying

9. loving even when it hurts

10. my wild side!!!

11. going to the Zoo when ever I want!!!

12. amazon.com

13. Red Robin

14. my 5 minute drive to work.

15. my boss

My next post is " What I have learned in 30 years!!!!!

Oh, feel free to wish me a Happy Birthday!!! Guarenteed my Husband didn't get me a gift and my family doesn't call.

This birthday gig sucks!!!!!!

I Have A Blog?!!!

This is a picuture of Hannah 2 days old!!! Could you just fall in love? I did!!!!

Where have I been? I am not sure . I just know that there are not enough hours in the day.

Hannah and Gracie are just so much fun. I love my 4 days off with them. Some days Dean is off also and we get to all play together.

Hannah turned 3 on the 16th. She had a great birthday and got a lot of cool girly things. Her favorite gift I think was her bike from my inlaws. She just sits on it and waits for me to help her .She is just amazing and smart. We started a behavior chart because I was tired of raising my voice. She is responding to it and listening better. I think she gets the idea because she is really doing well with it.

Potty training is a dead issue. I don't know why but she refuse to do it. I think I need 4 daYS off together and maybe it will happen.

She asks to pray every night and she thanks God for everybody we know. I am really proud of that. She is loving and kind and she will woo you with her personality. She has accomplished a lot in 3 years and I am so proud.

Gracie girl, she cracks me up. Tell her that she needs her diaper changed. She goes to the closet and gets a diaper and brings it to you. She taught herself how to go up and down the stairs. She does it well. She started saying Ma ma! It melts my heart every time. Tonight Hannah asked to pray and Gracie folded her hands. She's not saying many words but she does communicate what she wants. Ask Gracie if she is hungry she will nod her head to say "yes". She will out eat her sister any time of the day. With Gracie's asthma we found out that she is allergic to milk. She is on Zyrtec and nigh and the Nebulizer once a day. Poor little baby!!! She is doing well I think with all the changes.

I am doing well,thank you. I am busy at work and exhausted after 3 12hour days. I am meeting some wonderful people and making some friends. Don't worry I love you!!!!

I am in a lot of pain all the time and hoping that Lupron fixes the problem.

Spring is coming and can't wait to be outside more with the girls. We are going to N. Carolina in May and I am so excited. I can't for the girls to see the beach.

I am sure that I am missing something but I promise to fill you in more. It's late and I think I should go to bed.

Be Back Soon!!!!

Just So Darn Happy!!!

Do you like my new look? do ya do ya!!!!

Is it wrong that I love my job and after 4 days of being off I can't wait to go back? I love my girls, you all should know that by now. I just love the people that I work with. I am exhausted by the 10Th hour but I am happy.

I love coming home in the evening and the girls are bonkers excited to see me. I can hear from my car "mommy is home". I just love hearing those words. I don't like hearing from my husband "Hannah didn't listen to me at all" She is in the terrible 2's need I say more.


In other news the girls are adapting to my work schedule. Hannah is very excited to know that I am off. However she is not happy when I go back to work. Hannah sings all the time; like she sings to tell us what she is doing next. It's really the cutest thing.

Gracie girl,oh I don't think she could get any cuter. She is so lovable and sweet. She always has a smile on her face. She really likes to laugh and be tickled. She wants to be kissed all the time. I was teaching her some sign language. She is confused so when I say I love you Gracie, she will blow a kiss. She adores her daddy and Hannah. She walks up to Hannah and says "hi" then Hannah hugs her and then you heart Gracie say "Aw". It's so funny!!!

Dean, I can't begin to tell you how proud I am of him. He is up again for another promotion. He is wowing his superiors. He comes home from a long day and is very helpful. I am having some health problems and he is taking over with the girls. He has been making dinner every night and lets me go to bed early. I love him so much!

I would like to clarify something. This crazy person who I have made my blog private. She said some horrible mean things to me and my husband. They are unforgivable hateful things. I am a forgivable person but do not insult my husband or my parenting skills. Especially when your kids are monsters and don't have any manners. Enough said on the "crazy person" in my family.

The girls and I are spending the day with my mother. My dad has to work all day so we are going to keep her company. You locals don't go to the Zoo is going to be crowded this weekend.