Loving Those My Girls And Other Things

Gracie did 2 of the sweetest and smart things of a 2 year old.
1. I was reorganizing the books shelf in the entertainment system. So I went upstairs to find more books. I couldn't find this one book. It was important to me because this book is my favorite and Hannah's. So I gave her the description. "It has a mouse with a big strawberry on it with green leaves". So Gracie was sitting on my bed and she started to get down. "I be back okay" 5 seconds later she came back up and said"ear it is"(Gracie talk). I could not believe it she found the book. I was just baffled. I have never read this book to her and she found it.

2. So tonight I am doing the nightly routine. Books, bottle and change diapers. About 10 minutes later Gracie comes to me and says"I ready for crib " That's her sign that she is really ready. So we go in the family room and say our I love you's. So I said to Gracie"say I love you to Hannah" She points right at Hannah and says "hug". I looked over at my husband and he had the biggest smile. Could she melt my heart anymore. I just thought that was so sweet. She and Hannah were playing so well together today. I got a lot done tonight because of them being very occupied.

Remember I told you about my kitchen table that I am in love with? Well lately I am really working on my kitchen.I am trying to make it all flow together. My parents agreed I need new floors. That has been on the list forever. I just got new curtains to flow with the table. That was major luck let me tell ya. I am going with less is more. So tonight I got a call that my new Baker's rack was being delivered. It is so beautiful!!!!!! So 2 other things have been removed from my kitchen. My biggest dilemma is what color to paint my kitchen. Which I think that will really make the kitchen better.
These are the colors of my curtain. Country blue, forest green,yellow. What do you think?
Erin I really want your opinion on this one. Everybody else please help. me.

Over The Hill And Other Stories!!

Well yesterday my darling husband Dean turned 40. The girls and I made sure we gave him a proper celebration.
I surprised him with 2 dozen crabs and corn. We sat out back on our patio and went to town. These crabs were so good. It was just lumps of crab meat. We ended the night with Rita's Italian Ice.

The girl's are doing awesome. I know I haven't written about them. There is so much to tell. I really need to start taking notes before I blog.

Hannah is excited about the 4 year old program and 3 days a week. She will be back with all her friends. I also signed her up for Sunday school. She will be with some of her friends from school as well.I am really looking forward to this because I need to start going to church every weekend.

I am realizing that the girls are at the age of real routine. I kick myself every Sunday because I am prolonging the routine.

Gracie is just pistol!!! She is talking nonstop in sentences. She asks why about everything. She has taken much interest in the potty. She has no interest in sleeping in a big girl bed with Hannah. So it's still the crib for right now.

Right before I had surgery we got them a huge pool. It was a practical buy. They have really gotten their money's worth from the pool. Dean would take them out there and they would swim for hours. Then they took great naps. So that gave Dean some down time.

I have to mention my awesome neighbors. We really have great one. This has made living in the community a nice experience. We all help each other. Our one neighbor has a little girl. C is always playing with Hannah when their home. Our other neighbors have 3 dogs and Hannah and Gracie are in love. When we all get together it's so fun. Last night we sat outside and talked from 12:00am to 3:am. I couldn't believe it. CA said next weekend it will involve alcohol. Sounds great to me.

CA and CH are just wonderful people. I love having them as neighbors. They even trust us to let their Minne doxin hang out at our house. Bailey their dog has Hannah's heart.

It was funny last night when we were eating crabs Bailey dog snuck through the fence twice to come play. So today I called CA and CH to see if Bailey dog could come over for a little bit. The girls had a ball. I saw another side of my husband. Just dogs are not in the picuture right now.

Oh ,I have to tell you about Gracie I forgot. Were in Old Navy the other night . Gracie walked up to this lady with a huge butt. Gracie patted her on the butt and said "big buuttt",in her little 2 year old voice. I was so embarrassed. I couldn't believe it.

Well this was a lot. I hope you enjoyed my boring and sometimes exciting life.

Hope you all are well. Remember to comment I love it.

Today Is Another Day!

So today I did one errand and came home. Being out for 1 hour I was in complete pain. I really needed to buy a new hair dryer because mine died. I also needed to go to the bank. I came home took some pain medicine and went to bed.

The last 2 nights I have been spoiled by my to girlfriends bringing us dinner. Jean and Jen mad 2 delicious meals and I was stuffed at the end.Besides the fact that I love them our kids get along great.

I forgot to write that I got a new kitchen table. It's oak with green tile in the table. Oh, I love this table so much. I am redoing my kitchen in this color. I will take pictures and post them when I am done. Our neighbors 2 doors down moved and gave us the table.It's not even 2 years old and it's so beautiful.

I hope you all have a nice 4th of July. Stay safe and always thankful.

Diagnoses!!!

I have been home since 7:30pm. The marvelous Dr.M found significant amounts of Endometriosis. He excised the Endo and looked for clean tissue. Dr.M told my husband that I have large veins in my girly compartments which can lead to a lot of pain. So he is going to treat that with pain medicine. I will be starting Lupron I guess soon.

Hannah is with my parents and Gracie Girl came home with us. Gracie's vocabulary is rally picking up.So tonight this was a conversation with Gracie."Mama u bellwee ert n u doe 2 da dotter's?" "Yes Grace ,my belly hurts and Dr.M fixed me up so I can take care of you" "Oh,Mama u b fine otay" Wow, I love that girl so much.

So if any of you are having a bad day call her she will make it better or you will dye laughing.

Hannah told my Mom that she wanted Gracie to go home so she could have her Memom(my mother) to herself. Hannah loves her Memom so much. God only knows what their going to do together. Last time they were together they got their hair cut and a manicure. It's the life I tell ya it's the life.

You might be wondering why I am typing this right after surgery, well Percocet and Dilauded really kick ass. I don't feel a thing right now. I talked to my friend Beth who is a Gyn and she said I will be feeling it in the morning. Oh,yay!!!!!!!

We Talked!!

Today was my last day of work for 2 weeks until I return from having surgery. I couldn't wait to come home to see the girls. They get me through the hardest days.

I am very blessed that I have Hannah and Grace. They are my heart and I would do anything for them. So tonight I told Dean that I am at peace with whatever happens on Monday. If it happens that I can not have any more kids it's okay. We have our 2 beautiful girls and that is enough for me. I would be happy with another but whatever happens it's okay.

This was a talk that I didn't expect to have. I also did not expect to have these girls.

So I am really ready for Monday. I just hope that I don't cry when we drop the girls off. Also when I say goodbye to Dean before going to the OR.I know that this has him very worried.

Finally There Is An Answer!!!

Since I was 14 I was diagnosed with Endometriosis. I have suffered with a lot of pain and all the things that could go wrong with this horrible disease. Somehow I have managed to have to beautiful girls. These past years I have been in a lot of pain and I am miserable every day.

Everyday I wake up and try to be a good mother and wife. Sometimes I question my wife duties because the pain is so horrible. I love my husband and just adore my girls. They are the world to me and everyday I thank God for them.

I try to be a good patient and listen and do everything I am supposed to do. The pain lately has gotten to be to much and I don't think and can deal with it anymore.

My awesome Gyn sent me to a Gyn specializing in pelvic pain and endometriosis. Just talking to him I felt 100lbs of anxiety come off my body. He has a plan for my problem and he is going to fix it.

So first ,next Monday June 30 I am having surgery. Very invasive but it will help me. Dr.M even has more plans after surgery. I really liked his thoughts and I liked his personality. He understands that my pain is real and that this can be fixed.

God willing I would like more children so all these steps will help me get there.

So this blog will be about my journey through this tunnel of hope. At the end I hope I will have another baby. So please if you would follow with me. Please pray that Dr.M's plan and God's plan are going to work together.

Random Stuff Because I Live For Random!!!

Don't take the kids out to dinner when going on no nap!!Disaster!!
Mary Poppins Rocks!!!
Gracie is really cute when she says "hapee ber day" (happy birthday)
I love the Disney Movie Enchanted!!! Yeah who would not eat a apple for MCdreamy?
Is it a bad sign to keep having dreams about Billy Ray Cyrus??? Or does it mean Hannah and I have been watching Hannah Montana too much?
My girlfriends took me out to dinner for my birthday and it was a blast!!!

Poor Girl

Hannah has a double ear infection and a ruptured ear drum. She has the flu and looks absolutely horrible. This is her 4th ear infection in 3 months.

So if anybody could give me some advice on tubes finding a ENT that would be great. I feel so sad for her. Ear pain really sucks.

On a good note her birthday is next week and we are having her party at the Zoo. She is so excited!!!! Me too I love the Zoo!!!

I have a new love his name is Mr.Clean Magic eraser mop. I love him and what he does to my floors. They look so clean and beautiful. He goes right up there with Dyson my other love.

what's your favorite cleaning gadget?

Gas Or Duck It's All The Same

Dean and I tell the girls when they have expelled gas that they sat on a duck.

So this evening Gracie is on my lap and I heard something and I said"Gracie to you have Gas? " "no gas a duck" That was dam funny!!!

Dean and I had a great time Sunday evening. We held hands and talked for hours after the play. We felt silly seeing all these kids around us. High School Musical was a awesome play.

By Monday night I really missed the girls so when Dean brought them home I was happy to see them.

Hannah reported she had lots of fun. "cause uncle Brian played soccer with her".

I will write my post about high school tomorrow. I got to go see a 3 year about some chocolate milk.

It's A Date

For Christmas Dean and I got tickets to see High School Musical at the Hippodrome. So tomorrow night we are going on a date. I made reservations to eat at our favorite place. Then we are off to the play.

Wait this is the best part. The girls are spending the night with my parents. The good night sleep I am going to get is so exciting.

So here's a great comment question. Do you remember high school? Do you have good memories or bad? Do you miss it? What was a favorite memory?

Please comment I think this would be fun. My next post will be about high school.

We Are Just Busy!!!!

My life is just busy. Since Hannah has started school I have no time to do anything.

Hannah is doing great in school. The really great news is she is potty trained. I am saving on diapers. Hannah is really into Barbies. She plays for hours and hours. Hannah turns 4 in 2 weeks, we are having her party at the Maryland Zoo.

Gracie girl is just amazing!!! She has had her verbal explosion. She has become a mama's girl. My favorite line is "mommy old u". She is a cuddlier and a love bug.

Dean is doing great very busy with work. That's really it for him.

I have cut back my hours a lot.I am sick of the crap at work so it's just time to be home more. I am having surgery soon. The cyst that was on my right ovary has ruptured. The pain is absolutely horrible.

This is not a fun post sorry. I have a list of things to tell you. Right, now Hannah is nagging me to watch Jon & Kate plus 8 with her. You really don't have to twist my arm on that on. I heart Jon & Kate plus 8 .

I will write soon

take care

Another Freaking Pumpkin Farm!!!

Hannah had her first field trip ever. We went to a Pumpkin farm. It was actually a great day.

Dean dropped off the hurricane Gracie off. Hannah and I loaded up and met all the mother's and kids from her class. My friend Rachel who just has a heart of gold and lots of fun drove us.

Allison and Hannah held hands cause their buddies. They played on the swing set with the other classmates. Then we got on the wagon for a fun hay ride. They took us back to the pumpkin field and red us a story. Then picked our pumpkins and some gourds. Got back and headed back. Then we had refreshments and played some more. It was a great time.

Hannah slept for 4 hours when we got home.

I really haven't mentioned this. I have made some pretty awesome friends from her school. There are some awesome women in that group and a few of them have become my good friends. I mean good when I say we help each other with our kids. We walk the trail a lot during the week. Rachael that I mentioned earlier had us over during school so the little one's could play. The cool thing is we have 3 year olds in the same class. Then we have 1 year olds and they play well together.

I made another great friend named Jen. We really have the same things in common. She has a great heart and very upbeat. Her 1 year old is so cute too. Jason and Gracie play really well together. In fact they saw each other and gave a big hug and then held hands.

Rachael bought coffee the other day because I forgot my wallet. She invited us to her house to play. So I took Jason and Gracie to her house. She walked Travis and I out the 2 little ones in the double. We took a long walk and talked the whole time. It was really a great time.

I am really blessed to have met these moms. They have been so much fun. I think life is so much easier when you can talk about life,marriage and kids to other people. I love that they have excepted me the way that I am. I really look forward to Tues,and Thurs. Hannah does great in school and I get mommy time with Gracie and other Mom's and their kids.

So Rachael and Jen if you are reading this and I know you are. Thank you for making this transition easy. I am have a great time with my 3 hours of freedom from a 3 year old.

Gosh I love preschool!!!!

Thankful

Sunday's sermon was on being thankful always. It got really thinking the last 2 days. So here is my post on being thankful.

I am a daughter that is thankful for having 2 awesome parents. They never say no to me. They are always there for me and my girls. I am thankful because they have they have taught me a lot.

I am a sister to a brother and a older sister. We are unique in our personalities that define us. I am thankful because no matter what I can call on them and they are there.

I am a loyal friend. I thankful for the friends that God has put in my life. He has blessed me with such great people that love me for who I am.

I am a wife to the most wonderful man. I found my prince that loves me for everything that I am and I do. I am thankful because he has made me a better person.

I most thankful for being a mother. My children are my life and my heart. I do everything everyday for them. I laugh and cry daily because God me them. They are beautiful girls. I pray that they don't loose their way in life. That they always keep their eye on the cross. Always follow God's plan and love him forever.

So I feel better now. Being Thankful is such a great gift.

I Need A Reminder To Blog

I am really busy lately. I know it's been a month I hardly have time to eat latley.
So here's life in bullets

Hannah
doing great in school-loves it
got a playset in our back yard
follows me everywhere
become an expert in back talk
no potty training
her new best friend is Cameron our neighbor

Gracie
her vocab is so much better
so damm cute that girl
mastered the slide outback
becoming a mama's girl
the comic of the family
loves to take walks just with me
loves to hold my hand

ME
busy teaching religion
busy with work
busy with Hannah's school
busy with the girl's
busy on tuesday's and thursday's doing stuff with the mother's from Hannah school while Hannah is in school.
looking forward to nap time
having a 89th birthday party for my Nan at the Maryland zoo
loving every part of my life
Did I mention I love my Hannah and Gracie. They Rock!!!!!!

Somebody Pass Me The Freaking Lemonade!!

Hannah has not been sick all year I don't think. OF course the day before school she has a bad ear infection. So I don't send Hannah to school thinking she needs her rest. You know being in pain and all. Is that Murphy's Law?

Hannah is feeling better I think. I feel bad for her. I hate ear infections with a passion. So she has her first official day at preschool on Thursday with out me.

So I have become really busy . I start teaching this weekend. The 9th graders are really in for it this year. This semester I am teaching about morality! Their going to get a ear full. Sunday I have been recruited to meet and greet at our church with the new member breakfast. We will See how that goes with 2 toddlers at toe.

Is Hannah still considered a toddler? I don't know that one. Do You?

I think that Gracie has reached the terrible 2's. She gives me a hard time about a lot of stuff. I love just observing her. She is great entertainment after a long day. Her personality is really coming out also. She is very loving and rotten at the same time. She has 2 new pharses. "I want"(fill whatever she wants) Then, "I eat otdog" ( the h is silent in Gracie's world". She just cracks me up. The other one I love is "My Mommie".

I have also noticed that Gracie loves to ride in the stroller. I can go anywhere and she is happy riding in the stroller. Gracie calls her blankie her "boppie". So give her, her boppie and binkie and she is happy in the stroller.

Dean is keeping busy with work. Please keep him in your prayers that he gets promoted soon. He has worked very hard the last 2 years.

Things are going well here. I am feeling really good. I started the Lupron and I think it's starting to work. I am not in a lot of pain like I was. So yeah for that. I hope that I am pregnant this time next year.

I will try and keep up with my blogging. If I haven't commented or visited lately. Don't worry I'll be back.

Everybody have a great week!!!

Hannah

Dear Hannah,

I can't believe you are starting preschool in 2 days. It feels like just yesterday I was holding you in the hospital. You have grown so much, that I wish I could freeze time and keep you 3.

You amaze me everyday with your words and actions. You are very smart and the things you remember just astound me. You are the best big sister ever. You are always helping me with Gracie. You give her lots of love when she needs it. You help me with her diapers. You make her laugh. You make me laugh everyday. Your smile lights up the room and it makes my heart bigger. Hannah, you are just a wonderful little girl. Everyday I try to tell you how awesome you are.

I want you to know as you grow,some days may be hard. You might find a task frustrating and no fun. Kids may tease you and hurt your feelings. Some days might be a real downer. You never have to worry because mommy will always be here for you. I love you so much and you never have to question that. You have made my life wonderful. I am a better person because of you.

I love when you sing to me and dance. I love when you tell silly jokes to make me laugh. You fill me up when you tell me that I am the best mommy. I love holding your hand when we take walks outside. You are a great big helper.

Thank You my sweet B. I love you so much.

Love,

Mommy

Just Trying To Understand

I realize as I write this I do have 2 beautiful girls. They are the light of my life and the reason I get up every morning. I am grateful everyday to have them in my life. They make me laugh,smile and cry sometimes.

I am just overwhelmed with a lot of things right now. It's seems I can't catch a break. Someone please explain to me how I have Endometriosis and a large cyst on my right ovary. I thought having 2 kids would take care of this. I am in pain everyday and it never lets up. I am just tired from all this,again I feel overwhelmed.

I wanted to write this for a couple of reasons. First, I want to look back in a couple of years while I am nursing my 3rd baby and tell myself I am a wiener. Second , there are no good posts because by the time the girls are asleep I am wiped out. So when my pity party ends you all will see a better Red Headed Mommy.

So this is what I am dealing with and I hope you all understand.

p.s. Gracie has 1 new phrase,"no mommy" Great(with a sigh)

Okay, So I Am Slow

My life is really busy these days. Work is crazy and I can't wait to come home to be with the girls.

I did it I enrolled Hannah in Preschool. I can't believe that she is starting school. She is really excited about it too. I told her that I went to that preschool too. I also mentioned that her Memom was a teacher there also. She just gets a big smile on her face. She is really ready for this big milestone. I am not sure that I am. I feel like I just had her yesterday. We will see as the days come.

Gracie is so funny these days. He vocab is getting better. She likes to make people laugh. Everything lately is Mommy mommy mommy!!!! She gets upset if I leave her. She is a real luv bug. When she is ready for bed she is ready. Give her a bottle and change her diaper quick or you have some drama .

I start my teaching in September. I am really excited about that. I love to teach young people. I want them to know how important Christ is in their life. My heart is so there sometimes I think the teenagers see me with 2 heads. Whatever it takes for them to love him. I feel really good these days. The doctor's told me to go back to being a mom and wife. That there is really nothing to worry about. So I think I will!!!!!

Well, my husband turned 39 on Friday. I made him a fab meal. He wanted apple pie for his cake. So apple pie he got.

Well I am going to go have a piece of it. I will write more later!!!

I'm Back!!!!! And Feeling Thankful!!!!

I have to write first that my Mother,my mother in law and husband you all the best. I could not have gotten through this ordeal without you. You took care of me and my beautiful girls.

Dean, when the doctors said that maybe it was a stoke. All I could think of was not being here for you and the girls. I know somehow you would survive because you are a awesome father. You tell me all the time how you need me and I can't imagine not being here for you. Thank you for holding my hand and kissing my head when I was at my worst. You organized the girls to where they needed to be. You got their clothes packed. You never rolled your eyes you just did what you needed to do. You continue to amaze me and I love you so much. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I love you so much.

Mom, thank you for keeping the girls being at the hostpital and running around like a crazy person.
I will never forget the horrible pain I was in and I just asked for you and you came to my side. You rubbed my head like you did when I was younger. You never left my side unless to take care of Hannah and Gracie. Thank you for letting me cry when things were frustrating. I love you so much. I am looking forward to dinner next week just you and I.

Stella, you treat me like your own. You give our girls such great love and care. I can always count on you. I love you so much thank you for everything.

Hannah and Gracie I am so sorry that mommy was away. I know you missed me . I am back and I missed you both so much. Mommy loves you!!!!

So The Part Where My Head Explodes!!!

This will be real quick!!!! I woke up Monday of last week with 104.5 fever with the worst headche ever. Dean took me to the Er under advisement of my PCP.

After many tests (spinal tap,) every x ray in the world. They first thought I had a stroke then now possibly some form of mennigitis. Now it's a little bit of both. Needless to say I won't go back to that hostpital again.

I feel like my brain has been fried. Somehow I remembered to write to you all. So I will be at the doctor's a lot this week. If you have my phone number call me because there probaly won't be a lot of internet action this week.