Monday, June 30, 2008


I have been home since 7:30pm. The marvelous Dr.M found significant amounts of Endometriosis. He excised the Endo and looked for clean tissue. Dr.M told my husband that I have large veins in my girly compartments which can lead to a lot of pain. So he is going to treat that with pain medicine. I will be starting Lupron I guess soon.

Hannah is with my parents and Gracie Girl came home with us. Gracie's vocabulary is rally picking up.So tonight this was a conversation with Gracie."Mama u bellwee ert n u doe 2 da dotter's?" "Yes Grace ,my belly hurts and Dr.M fixed me up so I can take care of you" "Oh,Mama u b fine otay" Wow, I love that girl so much.

So if any of you are having a bad day call her she will make it better or you will dye laughing.

Hannah told my Mom that she wanted Gracie to go home so she could have her Memom(my mother) to herself. Hannah loves her Memom so much. God only knows what their going to do together. Last time they were together they got their hair cut and a manicure. It's the life I tell ya it's the life.

You might be wondering why I am typing this right after surgery, well Percocet and Dilauded really kick ass. I don't feel a thing right now. I talked to my friend Beth who is a Gyn and she said I will be feeling it in the morning. Oh,yay!!!!!!!

Friday, June 27, 2008

We Talked!!

Today was my last day of work for 2 weeks until I return from having surgery. I couldn't wait to come home to see the girls. They get me through the hardest days.

I am very blessed that I have Hannah and Grace. They are my heart and I would do anything for them. So tonight I told Dean that I am at peace with whatever happens on Monday. If it happens that I can not have any more kids it's okay. We have our 2 beautiful girls and that is enough for me. I would be happy with another but whatever happens it's okay.

This was a talk that I didn't expect to have. I also did not expect to have these girls.

So I am really ready for Monday. I just hope that I don't cry when we drop the girls off. Also when I say goodbye to Dean before going to the OR.I know that this has him very worried.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Finally There Is An Answer!!!

Since I was 14 I was diagnosed with Endometriosis. I have suffered with a lot of pain and all the things that could go wrong with this horrible disease. Somehow I have managed to have to beautiful girls. These past years I have been in a lot of pain and I am miserable every day.

Everyday I wake up and try to be a good mother and wife. Sometimes I question my wife duties because the pain is so horrible. I love my husband and just adore my girls. They are the world to me and everyday I thank God for them.

I try to be a good patient and listen and do everything I am supposed to do. The pain lately has gotten to be to much and I don't think and can deal with it anymore.

My awesome Gyn sent me to a Gyn specializing in pelvic pain and endometriosis. Just talking to him I felt 100lbs of anxiety come off my body. He has a plan for my problem and he is going to fix it.

So first ,next Monday June 30 I am having surgery. Very invasive but it will help me. Dr.M even has more plans after surgery. I really liked his thoughts and I liked his personality. He understands that my pain is real and that this can be fixed.

God willing I would like more children so all these steps will help me get there.

So this blog will be about my journey through this tunnel of hope. At the end I hope I will have another baby. So please if you would follow with me. Please pray that Dr.M's plan and God's plan are going to work together.