Monday, September 25, 2006

If Your Ever In A Jam....................Here I Am

I woke up this morning with a numb feeling in my stomach. I realized that 4 years ago today I stood by my Grandfather's hospice bed and said goodbye to him. I will never forget the emotions I had as he took his last breaths. I wasn't ready to really say goodbye to my,"poppy".

I will always remember a good man. He always did the right thing no matter what. He set the tone for the family and paved the way for all. He was in love with my Grandmother and they were married for 60 years. He loved his Grandchildren and we loved him just as much.

He had a strong faith in God and adored the Blessed Mother. He was okay with his cancer. He told me once that every morning he got up and said "thy will be done". I was just amazed that anyone really had that response.

I feel him with me everyday. I talk to him when my faith is not so bright. I talk to him and the Blessed Mother when I need to be a better wife. When the girls are sick I feel him with me so I can get through the day. Some days I can smell his cologne and I look around. No one is there,so I think he is here watching over me.

The day I had Mary Grace I held her back in my room. She had this bright red hair with waves. I remember my grandfather with his receding hair line but with waves. Not to long ago I had a dream and I told him I missed him. He told me that he sent Mary Grace to me.

His picture is on my fridge from the Christmas before he died. I tell Hannah all about her Grand poppy and how wonderful he is.I think Hannah and Gracie would be spoiled if he was here today. Spoil both kids with love.

The title of this post is from a song that he used to sing to me.

If you ever in a jam, here I am

If your ever in a tree, call on me

If your ever in a mess, S.O.S

Friendship Friendship.

2 comments:

Anne said...

I am so sorry for your loss but it really seems like you have a sucha positive feeling about the whole thing, and I'm glad you still feel your Poppy. That is so special. And your dream...so sweet. So sweet.

Krisco said...

That is so beatiful. It brought a tear to my eye.

My grandmother always told me that if you see someone in your dreams after they have died, they are visiting you. You don't always get that. I am sure he is watching over you.